tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post1832841220632503944..comments2024-02-16T19:07:42.535-08:00Comments on Darcy's Heart-Stirrings: Of Libraries, Flashbacks, and Alternate Realities Darcyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03702441292981376229noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-20443291172061344422021-07-09T13:42:50.668-07:002021-07-09T13:42:50.668-07:00I know this post is five years old but I just have...I know this post is five years old but I just have to say that, like the author and several of the commenters, I too had panic attacks at any mention of the words "millions of years" or other such things. I literally could not watch anything science-y with my parents that wasn't from Answers in Genesis or other creationists because of the fear that something about evolution would be mentioned. It still makes me uncomfortable even if my parents aren't around. I wish none of us had to go through that shit but it's a relief to know I'm not the only one who had that fear. If I ever have kids, they will be raised better than that.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-16467177098991892402017-08-29T20:06:32.043-07:002017-08-29T20:06:32.043-07:00Tomorrow my son is taking a school bus to third gr...Tomorrow my son is taking a school bus to third grade at a public school. Three things I was never able to do. Tonight after touring his school and packing his backpack I broke down out of relief and sadness. Relief that my sons getting to grow up normal his hierarchy of needs are being met and sadness for me as a child who literally physically craved normalcy. I still regularly flash back but then I read some Harry Potter and enjoy my life as a NORMAL bad ass apostate woman! tesiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13835242272216165056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-14557047657695430892016-10-18T12:30:34.708-07:002016-10-18T12:30:34.708-07:00This was really emotional for me to read. Thank yo...This was really emotional for me to read. Thank you for articulating this experience so well, it makes me feel less alone and understood. I still have a panic when I hear "millions of years ago" and I glance around for my parents and then I take a deep breath and remember I am safe now. For me the panic was induced by knowing best case scenario she would make us leave then and there and worst case she would stand up and loudly recite some vaguely threatening scripture at the presenter. Olivia Johttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10913945554694852592noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-47110697027297229142016-10-18T12:30:30.954-07:002016-10-18T12:30:30.954-07:00This was really emotional for me to read. Thank yo...This was really emotional for me to read. Thank you for articulating this experience so well, it makes me feel less alone and understood. I still have a panic when I hear "millions of years ago" and I glance around for my parents and then I take a deep breath and remember I am safe now. For me the panic was induced by knowing best case scenario she would make us leave then and there and worst case she would stand up and loudly recite some vaguely threatening scripture at the presenter. Olivia Johttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10913945554694852592noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-78041466532724596212016-09-13T13:44:39.913-07:002016-09-13T13:44:39.913-07:00I am so glad I found your blog. I wasn't homes...I am so glad I found your blog. I wasn't homeschooled, but I was also taught from an early age not to question my elders, and to basically distrust everything they considered "worldly." I was taught feminism, homosexuality, pre-marital sex, masturbation, and all music that wasn't Christian was secular and ultimately of the devil. After getting married, I was finally able to break away from a very harmful church I was raised in. (My husband is still a Christian, but was not raised in a church and is much more liberal in his faith. He was actually understanding when I said I wasn't a Christian anymore. I'm so blessed to have him.) It's still hard to live with my decision to leave the faith because my father is still very involved in that church. I can't tell him I'm not a Christian anymore because he will just try to reconvert me. It's so hard living with this secret, but at least now I feel freer to be myself than I ever had while I was still a Christian.recovering evangelicalhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03677129957918293588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-29643013453713798592016-08-09T10:55:51.786-07:002016-08-09T10:55:51.786-07:00Oh thanks for those book recommendations! I hear y...Oh thanks for those book recommendations! I hear you about the Yellowstone thing. I live one hour from Yellowstone and the geology is heavily taught at my school so i have a really good understanding of it. At least if it blows, I'll be dead immediately. lol Darcyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03702441292981376229noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-92114328997337030212016-08-03T14:09:04.077-07:002016-08-03T14:09:04.077-07:00I married a geologist. It's beyond fascinating...I married a geologist. It's beyond fascinating. I've toured the North Cascades, the Olympics, Yellowstone and some of the Rockies with him and learned so much.<br /><br />If I may suggest, get yourself a copy of "Annals of the Former World by John McPhee. It's a wonderful, lyrical tour of the US with several geologists. It makes concepts like deep time accessible to the layman. <br /><br />Also, consider looking at the "Roadside Geology" series. They're books covering the geology of each state, with emphasis on understanding what you see as you drive by it. They offer a good starting-point to the earth-sciences.<br /><br />(An aside - touring Yellowstone with a geologist is also scary. Resurgent calderas ... I may never sleep well again:-)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06818885592879241716noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-42496674461432932932016-08-03T11:22:52.695-07:002016-08-03T11:22:52.695-07:00Panic for fear of invoking wrath and anger from my...Panic for fear of invoking wrath and anger from my father. It was an emotionally inverted household. Us children were held responsible for our parents' emotions. So destructive. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07953345648148996017noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-32995956623611880492016-08-03T11:22:25.611-07:002016-08-03T11:22:25.611-07:00Panic for fear of invoking wrath and anger from my...Panic for fear of invoking wrath and anger from my father. It was an emotionally inverted household. Us children were held responsible for our parents' emotions. So destructive. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07953345648148996017noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-59696367365805625262016-07-26T18:02:53.032-07:002016-07-26T18:02:53.032-07:00I did, didn't I? :-)I did, didn't I? :-) Darcyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03702441292981376229noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-64225470600392822112016-07-26T18:02:24.975-07:002016-07-26T18:02:24.975-07:00I panicked too. But, like, why? it doesn't mak...I panicked too. But, like, why? it doesn't make any sense.Darcyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03702441292981376229noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-11556883448419063512016-07-26T18:01:41.696-07:002016-07-26T18:01:41.696-07:00I live in a place that is rich with geology. I lov...I live in a place that is rich with geology. I love driving and hiking and boating around here and finally finally understanding the rocks I see and the land I walk on and the gems I dig up and the hot springs I soak in, and not having to pretend that none of it happened the way it did.<br /><br />I would love to be a geologist. Darcyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03702441292981376229noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-79024749183772553752016-07-26T16:58:26.622-07:002016-07-26T16:58:26.622-07:00I hear your misery within your joy for your kids. ...I hear your misery within your joy for your kids. I know your misery and feel the same thing with my kids as they slowly stretch free wings and occupy the world. Your words carry the truth of what happened to you, what happened to all of us who were trained-up. Thank-you for putting it down here for others of us to read and relate to.... You are very brave. What you survived you have made a foundation on and your children are just plain free. You did that.Brianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15475038577503590631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-36156182991978659022016-07-26T10:41:54.769-07:002016-07-26T10:41:54.769-07:00Thank you for writing this. This articulates exact...Thank you for writing this. This articulates exactly what I experienced as a child. Watching even a documentary on PBS with my father around was absolutely panic inducing for fear they might say, "millions of years."<br /><br />I feel frustrated and alone because most people don't even comprehend what I went through. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07953345648148996017noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-2813212162026062482016-07-26T10:41:30.905-07:002016-07-26T10:41:30.905-07:00Thank you for writing this. This articulates exact...Thank you for writing this. This articulates exactly what I experienced as a child. Watching even a documentary on PBS with my father around was absolutely panic inducing for fear they might say, "millions of years."<br /><br />I feel frustrated and alone because most people don't even comprehend what I went through. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07953345648148996017noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3113535730415912557.post-63268398050799389832016-07-15T14:13:46.722-07:002016-07-15T14:13:46.722-07:00I share a lot of this with you. I was reminded aga...I share a lot of this with you. I was reminded again on a recent trip with my parents (they weren't as bad as yours by a long shot, but still did the YEC thing with us...) and realized that they still felt the need to fight the age of the earth when reading about the geologic history of places. It has been so freeing to be able to dump the necessary cognitive dissonance - I mean, mainstream geology fits the visible and obvious features so much better - and not have to fit it into a literalist Genesis narrative. I'm glad my kids don't have to go through that either. Diary of an Autodidacthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11849157548643091986noreply@blogger.com